Pregnancy Brain

Remember the beautiful man I spoke of? I married him and am now carrying his child...first comes love, then comes marriage, now comes pregnancy brain....

I thought such a thing was a myth. I never understood how woman couldn't tighten up their bootstraps and tough it out (pregnancy). I am sorry to all the woman that have had it tougher than I, from what I understand I am in the median group of all of this loveliness.

First the morning sickness... next. You dont want to hear about that.

Second the wave of tiredness that floats over you like a warm cloud and puts you on your ass. For hours. And hours. I could sleep for weeks.

Then comes the pregnancy brain. Now mind you we are right at 11 weeks, and I KNOW that this experience and is full of fun surprises and experiences and it is all worth it...blah blah blah...but for now....

It is Gods way of telling you to chill out, laugh about it, and move on...your life will NEVER be the same....

So far this week, I have lost my wallet, given up on finding it, canceled all of my cards, immediately afterwards, my friend called and said I accidentally put it in her purse instead of mine.

I cruised into the gas station because I keep forgetting to fill it up....

I wore my shirt inside out til an afternoon when my best friend called me out.....

Not to mention my newlywed of a husband reminds me daily that I cannot remember anything I have told him, also that I repeat myself 20 times a day, that can't be aggravating.

More to come, the family is waiting on me....

Wonderful New Year

I have finally subsided the gypsy soul a little....I have discovered some amazing people in my life this amazing new year who have reminded me of me and who I use to be....I am running more freely, listening to music a little louder, and just accepting all kinds of opportunities that come my way....it is the MOST fabulous time I have had in years...

Summer theme: Peace, Love, and Rock N Roll...I have already begun the research to make this the most unbelievable summer of my life....from someone who has always worked 2-3 jobs, a summer off? Bring it bitches. First on the list- Coachella with the most fascinating and beautiful man I have met in a long time....


I have also signed up for two half marathons...one in March and one in June...one is around 5 hours away, the other around 2 days...I will travel to both of them by car, finding adventures in unusual places along the way.

Love the New Year, New Opportunity, and New Beginnings....my heart is smiling.

New Year, New Beginnings

This time of the year is awfully hard for me....between family, the holidays, birthdays, expectations, traveling, etc...I seem to want to put the end of the year in the review mirror by the time it is all said and done. It is almost sad really...our society has started this Christmas trend almost to where they have taken the excitement, suspense, and enjoyment out of the holiday....corporate America turning a once beloved holiday into another one of their productions so they can make another dollar...and we as society buy that crap. When did we start losing the sight of "giving" from our hearts regardless of how big, how much money was spent, or what the gift accomplishes...why can't we stop all the jaded mannerisms we have adopted and stop...enjoy....have pure joy and love...and remember the spirit of the holiday?

A friend of mine told me that his dad next year told his family that all of next years gifts will be made somehow....using their creative abilities, not their shopping power. I think it is the most fabulous idea I have heard in ages....we are all grown adults that get mixed up in society's crap. With this idea, we can create, use our imaginations, and truly spend time giving a gift from the heart.

Tomorrow is New Years...I am so excited to start fresh another year!
2010 has been one of the most life changing years for me in relationships, job, moving, new car, surgery, etc...and I am so thankful for every experience I have had. It has lead me to a job that I adore, a town that I never in a million years thought I would live in (so not my style) but I absolutely love the simplicity of it!

For the new year, I want to continue my journey of self exploration....something I have never allowed myself the time to be able to do....continue my love of traveling...I am planning a journey this summer up the West Coast of America by road trip...and am starting to discover the amazing things to stop and see along the way.

Also, I have always loved the idea of "party planning" and I believe I am going to take time to explore the options of doing that part time...I think this will help settle my restless soul and need for social interaction...something I get, but need more than others evidently....

I am excited about this upcoming year and the adventures that will come with it...if anyone even reads this...happy new year to you...I hope your life is blessed and opportunities come your way.

Penny Lane

One of my closest friends assigned me that nickname years ago....Penny Lane...oh how those were the days minus the groupie ways and drug abuse.


Up all night, working as a bartender to pay the bills, hanging with rockstars, going to all the VIP events in town, never paying a cover or God forbid have to stand in a line to get into a venue or even paying for drinks...


I thought that is how life was suppose to be...glamorous, exciting, every day a holiday, every night a celebration. Never meeting a stranger, mixing with all kinds of different crowds and scenes, and being open to all of life possibilities. I had a rockstar spirit without the luster to play an instrument or sing.


I don't understand the mediocre life that most people lead, only looking forward to a week of vacation a year, working til your knuckles bleed, and only enjoying the better things after they have retired. Don't misunderstand...I'm not knocking it, I just don't get it.


I am a work-a-holic that works for the good times, the celebrations, and the adventures...it is nothing for me to have to work seventy hour weeks, but for some reason, when that time clock checks me out, I become alive all over again. Not that I do not love what I do, it just gives me a sense of freedom. 


Food for thought...how do you mix a rockstar spirit with a "normal" life?

New Day....

I always get to that point. The place where everything is really great and all areas of my life...and I am an anxiety ridden fool. It happens between six months to two years after a good change...then I want to switch it all up again. Some prime examples- once I went and traveled Europe by backpack for five weeks, I have walked into a very lucrative job and announced that I was no longer going to be working there and we needed to figure out right then if it was necessary for me to even work out my contract, and I should own my own moving company...because I am just that good at moving. 

You probably think I am running from something...which I sometime wish was the case only to justify this unrationalized behavior....but that is not the case. As much as I like change, I have always been one to reach out to loved ones and friends, have had the same cell phone number for ten plus years, and actually take challenges in all areas of my life in stride and enjoyment. 

Currently I have been living in this city for about six months, I have a job that I LOVE, family who I absolutely adore, spit fire dog who makes my heart smile, and have started making fabulous friends. This is a recipe for a stress free settled life that people envy...and I am losing my shit. 

So here I am blogging to anonymous people around the globe...in wonderment on how you scratch your itch...what you do to make a change without uprooting your life and not falling short of regrets...and without the easy escape of drugs and alcohol...not into it...not even an option.

The only answer I have been able to acquire is travel...and lots of it. I have been to 3/7 continents, more than 3/4 of the United States, and plan to go on more adventures sooner than later...

For now...I am turning into a gypsy soul on the internet express and will take my Wild Rovers rides with you...not sure what is going to happen...but I know it will not be boring, because frankly, it never is.