I always get to that point. The place where everything is really great and all areas of my life...and I am an anxiety ridden fool. It happens between six months to two years after a good change...then I want to switch it all up again. Some prime examples- once I went and traveled Europe by backpack for five weeks, I have walked into a very lucrative job and announced that I was no longer going to be working there and we needed to figure out right then if it was necessary for me to even work out my contract, and I should own my own moving company...because I am just that good at moving.
You probably think I am running from something...which I sometime wish was the case only to justify this unrationalized behavior....but that is not the case. As much as I like change, I have always been one to reach out to loved ones and friends, have had the same cell phone number for ten plus years, and actually take challenges in all areas of my life in stride and enjoyment.
Currently I have been living in this city for about six months, I have a job that I LOVE, family who I absolutely adore, spit fire dog who makes my heart smile, and have started making fabulous friends. This is a recipe for a stress free settled life that people envy...and I am losing my shit.
So here I am blogging to anonymous people around the globe...in wonderment on how you scratch your itch...what you do to make a change without uprooting your life and not falling short of regrets...and without the easy escape of drugs and alcohol...not into it...not even an option.
The only answer I have been able to acquire is travel...and lots of it. I have been to 3/7 continents, more than 3/4 of the United States, and plan to go on more adventures sooner than later...
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